Saturday, August 16, 2008


Today would be my Dads 59th birthday. I miss him so much and wish he were here even sick. That sounds so selfish and is I just want him back. I know I will see him again one day because I have FAITH that I will. It is just so hard letting go. I struggle with this daily. I thought it would be getting better by know but it isn't. I don't know when it will ease but for now it isn't its just as strong as the day we let go of him, April 25, 08.
We are spending the weekend at his house with Grammy because her birthday is on Sunday the 17th. It is so hard to be happy and celebrate hers when I miss him so much, but I am going to give it my best.
Have a great weekend.


Kim said...

Cyndi, I am so sorry that your heart is hurting. Spending your days without him is still very new. Birthdays are just hard. On Chuck's first birthday in heaven, we had intentions of celebrating with a cake as we always had, but when it came down to it, we couldn't do it. It hurt too bad- and it had been almost one year. This year, we are going to do what a friend suggested- we are going to have a cake and all of our family will write a message to Chuck on a balloon and we will let them go. For the last 2 years, we couldn't even celebrate. It takes a lot of time, but I promise it gets easier. Please call me if you ever want to talk. I am not the best with words, but I do understand what you are going through. love, Kim

Windy said...

I can't imagine how your heart must feel. I will be thinking about you and praying for you this weekend. Lots of love and hugs...Windy

jennifer said...

I'm sorry you're struggling. I just can't even imagine. I will be praying for you.

Anonymous said...


I miss my mom today as much as I did the day I knew she was gone from me here on earth. Somehow we learn to live with those we love missing. My thoughts are with you!

Denise C said...

Thinking of you sweet friend!